I know I have kind of abandoned ship for awhile. The feelings and heartache are all still so real and painful. On Thursday the 22nd it was exactly 4 weeks since Mom Herrick passed away. In some ways it feels like that was 4 years ago but mostly it just feels surreal; like she is still at home in her recliner right where she has been all along. I still get teary eyed about once a day and my kids still think their mom has gone nuts because they just can't understand what all the fuss is over since we keep telling them that Grandma is in a better place. They think if she is in a better place then we should be happy and not sad or crying... oh how I love their sweet spirits!
Here are just a few photos from Mom's funeral... July 9, 2010.
Me and the kiddos have already been to visit the gravesite once. Boy did that make my heart ache and feel comfort all at the same time. It's amazing how you can talk to just a small plot of the earth and know the person hears you...I feel so blessed to know that me and my family can go there anytime just to be able to feel close to her, even though we are teaching our kids that Grandma is all around us everyday.
For instance, Sam had her big regional swim meet last week. It was just me, Sam, the twins and a 118 degree sun beating down on us. After she was all done and as we began to leave we could see the monsoon clouds were quickly approaching, however within those dark, ominous clouds was the most beautiful, bright rainbow. Sam and I quickly noticed it at the same time and looked right at each other...as if to say 'do you see that!' I whispered in her ear as we walked to the car that the rainbow was Grandma and she was watching her swim her very best and she wouldn't have missed it for anything. We both just sat there hugging each other. In that moment I felt her so strongly; I felt her embracing both of us letting us know that she was NEVER far away. Man, I miss her so much!
Here are just a few photos from Mom's funeral... July 9, 2010.
Me and the kiddos have already been to visit the gravesite once. Boy did that make my heart ache and feel comfort all at the same time. It's amazing how you can talk to just a small plot of the earth and know the person hears you...I feel so blessed to know that me and my family can go there anytime just to be able to feel close to her, even though we are teaching our kids that Grandma is all around us everyday.
For instance, Sam had her big regional swim meet last week. It was just me, Sam, the twins and a 118 degree sun beating down on us. After she was all done and as we began to leave we could see the monsoon clouds were quickly approaching, however within those dark, ominous clouds was the most beautiful, bright rainbow. Sam and I quickly noticed it at the same time and looked right at each other...as if to say 'do you see that!' I whispered in her ear as we walked to the car that the rainbow was Grandma and she was watching her swim her very best and she wouldn't have missed it for anything. We both just sat there hugging each other. In that moment I felt her so strongly; I felt her embracing both of us letting us know that she was NEVER far away. Man, I miss her so much!